Friday, April 29, 2016

In A Rut

      I feel well and truly done in. I've been crawling into bed before eight PM lately, so I can get enough sleep and wake up in the early morning, which is what my family wanted (now they just complain I'm in bed too early and sleep too much...even though way too much of my time is spent wide awake).
      I don't get enough sleep, though. I'm sooo exhausted. I was hoping for a movie marathon, or at least some popcorn and a half-hour DVD show. But I think I'll just drag myself through the monotony of a shampoo and then stumble off to bed. Again.
      I was going to wash my hair yesterday, around supper...But I was too tired. I went to bed and didn't wake up until 1 AM. At least if I do it now, I can go to bed knowing my hair is clean. That's always nice. Today I wanted very much to go out and do something fun. Yesterday my mom said today was the day, and then she ran off with Boyfriend. I got a text earlier - tomorrow we go out. Great, except now I want to sleep in. I'm not in the mood anymore; she could have at least asked if I was up to it. I showed her that much courtesy yesterday.
      Okay, I'm worn out. I'm too tired. I'm done. Off to wash my hair, and then I'm calling it a day.
      Again.

7 comments:

  1. It sure sounds like a rut...possibly depression :(

    There's not much I can say to help if that's the case, except to tell you I've been there. Sleeping a lot, or not able to sleep at all; feeling tired no matter how much you sleep, or feeling wide awake no matter how long it's been since you slept...and not really caring either way...?

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    1. Yeah, that's pretty much it. Today I kept saying one rude thing after another and I didn't even want to. They didn't even deserve it, and now I just feel like crying myself to sleep. Of course, it could also be that woman thing.

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    2. That happens to me, too! I think...I sometimes feel like I'm being a real bitch, and when I apologize later, G. says "Huh? You weren't being rude" and I wonder if I'm always bitchy or if we just don't agree on what 'rude' is... :p

      Definitely could be the woman thing, I know for sure I'm WAY worse at that time of the month :(

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    3. Me too; except for times it's very light and only lasts half an hour. I don't have moodswings then. When I apologize, Mom just says she gets it.
      I think what makes me mad the most is when guys say, Periods DON'T make you crave things, and they DON'T make you moody. You just need to control yourself. I'd love it if all men could be women long enough to experience a full cycle.

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    4. haha, YES. I absolutely crave things at that time of month, and I know I'm way more moody; everything irritates me or upsets me, and when it's not that time of the month, I feel fine - so it has to be that, not just a self-control issue.

      Guys can be so clueless...how about they don't scream at the TV when sports are on, then? What's their excuse? :p

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    5. They're overexcited, I guess? Maybe some of them are just idiots. I was playing NFSW one time, racing against another player; and when he lost, he began swearing at me. Some people DO need to control themselves. But, the difference is that women do it because their bodies are changing. Men do it because that's what men do. ;D

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