It shouldn't even be possible to go so long on so little sleep. I've been awake until 4AM or later for a week at the very least. I keep promising myself that tonight I'll take sleeping pills, tonight I'll take two, but then I schluff off to bed without taking even one.
Not like it matters. Last time I bothered with it, the damn thing gave me energy and I cleaned house.
My eyes are burning. My head is spinning. My mind is still whirring but my body is still trying to shut down. I am tired. I need rest! But of course, I can go to bed at 8PM, sleep uninterrupted until 3PM the next day, and still be more tired than when I went to bed the previous night. It's just not my - ah, screw it - life! The only reason I keep going is my family; that's the only good part about living. Everything else sucks. I sleep, but am never rested. I eat, but can never get full. I have several deadly health conditions that just don't want to kill me! Seriously! What's the delay about?
Yes, I love my family. No, I'm not scared of death. Why should I fear the one thing I don't need to live with? My biggest worries are getting my will finished and legalized, becoming an organ donor and maybe even getting life insurance. Once those are done, my soul is free to take. Onward and upward.
Well, onward, anyway.
Not like it matters. Last time I bothered with it, the damn thing gave me energy and I cleaned house.
My eyes are burning. My head is spinning. My mind is still whirring but my body is still trying to shut down. I am tired. I need rest! But of course, I can go to bed at 8PM, sleep uninterrupted until 3PM the next day, and still be more tired than when I went to bed the previous night. It's just not my - ah, screw it - life! The only reason I keep going is my family; that's the only good part about living. Everything else sucks. I sleep, but am never rested. I eat, but can never get full. I have several deadly health conditions that just don't want to kill me! Seriously! What's the delay about?
Yes, I love my family. No, I'm not scared of death. Why should I fear the one thing I don't need to live with? My biggest worries are getting my will finished and legalized, becoming an organ donor and maybe even getting life insurance. Once those are done, my soul is free to take. Onward and upward.
Well, onward, anyway.
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