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      The weather here has been dramatically improving. It's windy right now, but that's good - when the wind stops, it gets very, very warm; especially inside a car. It's easy to believe summer is right around the corner. When I look outside and see the green grass, the blue sky, and all the different colors on the trees, it's impossible to stay depressed or angry.
      In fact, even though I went shopping today, I had a great time; and that's with a trip to the doctor's office and the pharmacy thrown in. (Nothing huge, just an incredibly painful lesion on my finger that apparently can be healed with oral medicine.)
      It was payday, thank goodness, because we didn't have enough bread to make two sandwiches. First stop, the restaurant; and holy hell, did I laugh. My mom leans out the window and asks for one chicken strips. I get my order, and the waitress has actually given me one strip. Then, at the pharmacy, I have a twenty-minute wait ahead of me and I'm browsing the place, and I see a card that features three women wearing scarves that are big, saggy boobs; and the card says, "I'm thinking of getting you a scarf for your birthday...Which size would you like?"
      Now it seems the mirth has died under the worries of side effects, and this horrible fatigue I have never been able to conquer. Seems I'm having enough breathing trouble as it is without the possibility of an allergic reaction to medicine. I actually couldn't sleep a few nights back because my throat started to close. All I could do was choke and panic and wonder where my inhaler was; and today I didn't even think of getting a refill from my doctor. I have to make another appointment. Later, though; for now I've found my inhaler and have enough. And unless they add a debit machine to the transit systems, I can't afford to take the bus.
      I would have preferred a cream. Something that can be applied directly to the lesion; but no, I have to take it orally and hope it goes to the right place.