I've been dealing with my school slash workplace since May, and dealing with their sh*t, but finally on the eighth I'll be starting my school slash work program. I've been looking forward to it since before I got enrolled, because I wanted to change my future. But now that it's here I'm not nearly as excited. I'm scared. I'll still go through with it; at least I'll try my damnedest until they screw up one too many times. I registered with my own name, signed my own name on all the papers, told the dumbasses my name, and still they call me Emily. Friggin idiots.
I'm six pounds away from breaking my highest weight record. Guess I better go for more walks and lay off the chocolate. It's just been so nice to eat something that isn't totally liquid. And, well, the dentists forgot to pull my sweet tooth. (I know, I know, it's only a figure of speech...blah, blah, blah.) The part that helps me remain semi-confident is that our scale is unpredictable; first it says I've gained thirty pounds in the past two days, then it says I've lost forty, both of which I would have noticed. (Plus I like to think there's more to be than somebody's opinion.)
My book was going fantastic; then I fukked it up again. My other stories are all at a standstill, so I guess it's time to delete where it all went wrong. I told some of my friends I was going to work on a fantastic art project and now it's like, "I can't do this. I'm not nearly qualified enough." So I have to log on and tell them, nope, it ain't happening.
Heard some great music nobody will tell me the names of. Dealing with a spider slash flea infestation (thanks, cuz). Can't make any more CDs, and oh yeah, the greatest Sims family ever made in the history of Sims is more than likely at risk to be deleted, because after five fukking years (and seven months) of creating perfection, suddenly the program's incompatible. After five years. What the fuk. So I'm grouchy; I have been for - what do you know? - forever. Apparently music and chocolate is - what do you know? - not medicinal.
The good news is I am head over heels in love with icy, strawberries-and-blueberries smoothies. Oh, and garlic-potato-and-some-other-things soup. I'm still addicted to gaming, but at least they're a distraction from my other addictions. All in all, things here could be both worse, and better. I don't even know which side of the abacus is winning.
I'm gonna go now. It's time for another evening of predictable monotony - soup, and Big Bang reruns. 'Bye.
I'm six pounds away from breaking my highest weight record. Guess I better go for more walks and lay off the chocolate. It's just been so nice to eat something that isn't totally liquid. And, well, the dentists forgot to pull my sweet tooth. (I know, I know, it's only a figure of speech...blah, blah, blah.) The part that helps me remain semi-confident is that our scale is unpredictable; first it says I've gained thirty pounds in the past two days, then it says I've lost forty, both of which I would have noticed. (Plus I like to think there's more to be than somebody's opinion.)
My book was going fantastic; then I fukked it up again. My other stories are all at a standstill, so I guess it's time to delete where it all went wrong. I told some of my friends I was going to work on a fantastic art project and now it's like, "I can't do this. I'm not nearly qualified enough." So I have to log on and tell them, nope, it ain't happening.
Heard some great music nobody will tell me the names of. Dealing with a spider slash flea infestation (thanks, cuz). Can't make any more CDs, and oh yeah, the greatest Sims family ever made in the history of Sims is more than likely at risk to be deleted, because after five fukking years (and seven months) of creating perfection, suddenly the program's incompatible. After five years. What the fuk. So I'm grouchy; I have been for - what do you know? - forever. Apparently music and chocolate is - what do you know? - not medicinal.
The good news is I am head over heels in love with icy, strawberries-and-blueberries smoothies. Oh, and garlic-potato-and-some-other-things soup. I'm still addicted to gaming, but at least they're a distraction from my other addictions. All in all, things here could be both worse, and better. I don't even know which side of the abacus is winning.
I'm gonna go now. It's time for another evening of predictable monotony - soup, and Big Bang reruns. 'Bye.
I've been feeling like I weigh a lot lately...though I'd kill any scale that told me I'd gained thirty pounds in two days! I've been exercising every day and trying to eat less, but so far the routine has been Skipping meals, getting hungry and/or weak, eating way too much, feeling both sick and guilty, skipping meals - and it repeats...
ReplyDeleteIt's annoying because I've heard skipping meals is bad - not just health-wise, but because you can really only keep the weight off if you lose it slowly, just one pound a week, and anyway, when you go hungry, muscle goes before fat! (That's annoying because I've been working out and I need and want to be at least a little muscular instead of a bag of goo, and yet I feel it's just counterproductive to eat, and yet when I don't I feel so weak I can barely get through certain things, like washing dishes or exercising...
Blah. Depressing. And when I'm depressed, I need chocolate, so it really is a vicious cycle.
I'm sorry to hear your book got F'd up; that sucks! Maybe if you take a bit of a break and go back to it...? I did that...took a week or two off from writing (did art instead) and yesterday I added something like 4000 words to my first chapter, which is now at over 12,000 words and still incomplete...
Sorry to hear about your Sims issues, too - which game is it? Some of them have patches you can add so that glitches are fixed...
Is a smoothie like a milkshake? I don't think I've ever had one...
Yes, predictable evenings...been there, doing that...home alone and thinking I'll just watch some cartoons on YouTube until I'm sleepy; haven't been sleeping (or eating, lol) well these days...I really should get my arse in gear, in every way - still unemployed, too, but I'd prefer not to stick the reasons here (and there are actual reasons, I'm not just lazy!) :) I'm glad to hear you're still going to give that school thing a shot - it seems everyone who works at a school near where you live is incompetent; how does your name sound anything like 'Emily'? I had so much trouble finishing school there, I should have stopped, but I stuck with them until I graduated - proves how smart I am, eh?
I wish you would eat better...If you're ever in the mood for yogurt, look for Fieldberry. It's wonderful! There's also a Boost that's better than the others. It costs more, justifiably. Almost nine dollars, but it's sooo chocolatey, and it's bigger!
ReplyDeleteIt's Life Stories. It's got over 1,000 Sims in the family. (That's a lotta Woohooing, considering not every time is effective.)
More than once I've asked myself why I want to stick with them. Maybe I'm wasting my time. But the thing is, I'm wasting it anyway. I might as well try to be a better person doing it.
Pleeaaase take care of yourself, sis. <3
Fieldberry...I'll have to look for it, unless there are berry bits in it...unfortunately, no matter how good something might taste, I can't eat anything I might have to chew, because I still have trouble swallowing solid stuff, it always gets stuck :(
DeleteReally? Bigger, better Boost - I'll have to look for it next time I'm somewhere with a proper grocery store - is it $9 for a pack, or $9 for a bottle?
1000 Sims?! My biggest family has 3 people! lol! :D
I will (take care of myself) - I hope you do, too! :D
No berries. Just smooth. I can't do berries anymore, either. I ate most of the blueberry muffins, but all the blueberries went to waste. Shame.
DeleteIt's $9 a Boost, thankfully! It's totally worth it. It comes in red and white packaging.
Only 3? I can't imagine. My household has to be bustling with life. (But sometimes, when a Sim dies, its full body image and face thumbnail don't go away; I can still see them on the loading screen. When this happens over and over, the loading screen overflows with Sims alive and dead, to the point where the loading screen can't fit them all.)
I'm consuming mostly nutritional stuff, but it's all liquid. Boost, yogurt, smoothies, applesauce, pudding, even pork chops and whatnot have been put through the blender. It looks horrible, but it still tastes so good.
I should try that; I'm sure I'm a bit malnourished...it's been years since I had meat or veggies or fruit or bread...basically the only healthy thing I'm still getting is dairy! :p
DeleteTo clarify, try what?
DeleteThe yogurt... :)
DeleteAh...That question probably made me sound dumb, but of course we were talking about Boost, smoothies and applesauce, too...
DeleteNext time you come over how about we have the ingredients for smoothies ready?
Oops, you're right; I should try the other stuff too!
DeleteWhat kind of ingredients? And do they really end up smooth, or are they still chunky (needing to be chewed)?
They make life a lot more pleasant...I think you'll take to them.
DeleteThe ingredients are: Berries (four to ten dollars per container - we've only done strawberries and blueberries so far), ice (four to eight, but if you use too much it will totally dilute the taste), Whipping Cream (I seem to be allergic to it), and if you want, a big ol' blob of Whipped Cream on the top. It's smooth enough for your toothless sister to eat it no problem, so you don't need to worry. They're very tasty and filling; they fill even me up. And, they're regulators. If you're having trouble, it'll help.
What if you tried it with ice cream instead of whipped cream? You might not be allergic to that, and I bet it'd taste awesome!
DeleteIt's more about food that might get stuck in my throat than about teeth, actually; aside from a certain kind of cracker, I've been eating soup, gravy, and mashed potatoes for four years (I'd had enough of being okay eating food to gagging on it for no apparent reason). I can still have ice cream if there are no chunks, chocolate if I can melt it completely so I know it's "safe", and sometimes cheese, though not often; mostly I've been living off yogurt and Boost.
lol, good to know!
Ice cream does sound pretty tasty; we might have to try that...
DeleteSounds like you and I are in the same boat. I gag all the time, too, but I gag on air, too, so I just pause until I can breathe again and then I keep going.
Yeah, same...maybe it's hereditary...
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