Wednesday, June 7, 2017

I...NEED...SLEEP!

      I ab so tired of feelig this way! By doze is so clogged that if I close by bouth, I'b sure I would suffocate.
      Seriously, this is stupid. I just want to breathe normally like everyone else on the whole damn planet. OKAY? Is that too much to ask for? Close the windows and turn off the fans - please. Yes, I know it's hot. SO TAKE OFF YOUR SWEATER. FIND PANTS THAT AREN'T DENIM. I'M TRYING TO LIVE, GODDAMN IT. GIVE ME A FUCKING BREEEAAAAKKKKK!
      Or be humane enough to put me out of my misery. One more day like this and I swear, I'll do it myself. Or at least I'll lop off my nose, because I can't use it anyway! I had to wipe all the Vicks off my chest because it makes me drowsy, and sleep ain't happening. The Vicks can't penetrate the congestion anymore. So I wiped it off and now I'm sucking back eucalyptus cough drops like it's candy, just so I can get air in through my nose.
      This is what it's come down to? Are you fucking kidding me? They would rather wear their jackets and their damn denim jeans and open all the windows and watch me suffer, than to put on cooler clothes and do me the BIGGEST FAVOR OF ALL?
      It's like a fucking BLIZZARD out there! Day, night, it doesn't matter. That pollen shit is coming down like a blizzard, and I'm supposed to live like this! Screw her, she doesn't matter, I'm too warm!
      Do me a favor and just put me out of my misery. You wouldn't want a DOG to suffer, so show that courtesy to your own kind. My throat feels like a cat is trying to rip its way out, I can't hear shit, and I've used so much Vicks in the past week that it's coming out of places I didn't even put it. It's oozing out of my eyelids, it's dripping through the back of my neck and there is so much blood in my nose that I can't lay down! And I can't even cry in frustration because I'll get even more congested, so I'M GONNA YELL!

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  1. Wow ... you should probably see a doctor. Seriously. Allergies don't cause bleeding (although, sticking paper twisters up your nose to absorb stuff could do it, lol) and if you're in that bad shape, you should get some real help - or get out of there. If they've still got that air conditioner I bought, tell them to stop being so bloody proud and use it! (I've been offering it to them since I left.) Then they can close the windows, and hopefully you start feeling better - I don't miss those insane allergies.

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    1. I've just been sneezing so much; like forty times in an hour on the worst days. Sadly, no, Mom and Lorne were too sick or sore to move the AC and didn't ask me, so it got left behind.
      I went to the doctor for help and he prescribed these amazing pills. One helps, two makes me feel almost normal. I do have to wonder what three would do.

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    2. ... Oh. I wish I could remember if Mom had paid me for that, 'cause it wasn't cheap and I'm not thrilled that it was left behind.

      ... How many are you supposed to take? Be careful!

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    3. Sorry. I just didn't want to lie.
      As for the pill, it does say one a day. But, I am bigger than the average person, so I double my dose. It works okay, nothing horrible has happened, but I need more relief. I had taken both doses and I still had to alternate between chewing and breathing. >_<

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    4. I appreciate that you didn't lie; I hate liars. I also dislike it when people lie by omission - I'm pretty sure she never told me that.

      I just did a search of our conversations - the last time she mentioned the AC, it was 2014. So, she just never told me she left it behind, I guess.

      G. does that too, takes more of a medication than he should ... it makes me nervous, so I keep an eye on him - nothing bad has ever seemed to happen. Still, I may never relax about that sort of thing; that story Mom told us about the time she took too much Tylenol pops into my head every time he does it.

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    5. It can be scary, but I'm starting to think these are just placebos, or maybe I'm already too used to them. I have other medicines; I delayed taking them because they are LiquiGels, which make me choke every time. Last time I bothered we lived at the farm. Joe had to Heimlich me and I still ended up going to the hospital, sitting on my duff for two hours feeling fine.
      But Lorne told me to put it into some boiling water and let it dissolve, and drink. I'm not looking forward to drinking hot water, but hey, something's gotta work.

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    6. Capsules can often br broken open - if you get something with a powder in it, you can easily mix it with sugar and cold water so it's no different than Tylenol. I would cut the thing open on a spoon and try it that way if it's liquid ... but if I had to take it whole, I'd coat it in margarine first so there's a better chance it'll slide down the way it's supposed to. :p

      Also, cold water works best when swallowing pills, especially capsules; anything else softens them and they stick/get caught easier. Blech.

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    7. I might have to try water next time, but I will need cheese or something to get rid of the taste. It's awful. The day of my surgery, there was nothing to crush my pills, so I chewed them. I could still taste them when I woke up.

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    8. Chocolate works well to get rid of medicine taste, but sometimes you have to eat a lot of it, so I'm kinda looking for something more effective. Cheese is great on its own, but I've found that it doesn't cover medicine taste at all.

      Gross! Chewed pills! (I guess that was the last thing you ever chewed, if the surgery you're talking about is the one that took all your teeth?) When I was in the hospital in February, the nurses crushed my pills and mixed them with applesauce, another thing that does absolutely nothing to cover up the taste. And applesauce has a yucky texture itself, so ... yeah, I was glad to get home and crush them and mix them with sugar and water properly. :p

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