So.
Recently we looked at a house...I think it was perfect for us. Now my brother has doubts about it, and he's kind of the alpha dog in this house. When he speaks, Mom listens, and what I think or feel or say gets overlooked.
He's worried that after two months, the utilities cost will increase. So based on a fear which might not come true, they might decide to not take the one house we have a chance with. And it sucks, because I adored that house. I think of it as home already, and that never happened here. I thought of this place as "a house".
But what sucks the most is that everything he said makes sense.
And even if we did move into an affordable place, he might opt out on cable. No Internet. No deviantART, no Facebook, no Internet Checkers, none of it. My computer would just be good for writing books I can't publish online. And that sucks, too, because I'm on a roll with Big Bang Theory fanfics. People love them! That's never happened.
I wish we could just take the chance. I wish every decision wasn't his call. But since it is, we won't. We'll stay right here until late November, and he'll bitch and moan that it wasn't what he wanted.
And I'm guessing we'll wind up in some crappy, lowest-level apartment I'll hate more than this place. We'll have neighbors above us and on each side of us and it'll be noisy, disgusting and utter hell. And probably cold as ****, too.
So, hey, we have that to look forward to.
Recently we looked at a house...I think it was perfect for us. Now my brother has doubts about it, and he's kind of the alpha dog in this house. When he speaks, Mom listens, and what I think or feel or say gets overlooked.
He's worried that after two months, the utilities cost will increase. So based on a fear which might not come true, they might decide to not take the one house we have a chance with. And it sucks, because I adored that house. I think of it as home already, and that never happened here. I thought of this place as "a house".
But what sucks the most is that everything he said makes sense.
And even if we did move into an affordable place, he might opt out on cable. No Internet. No deviantART, no Facebook, no Internet Checkers, none of it. My computer would just be good for writing books I can't publish online. And that sucks, too, because I'm on a roll with Big Bang Theory fanfics. People love them! That's never happened.
I wish we could just take the chance. I wish every decision wasn't his call. But since it is, we won't. We'll stay right here until late November, and he'll bitch and moan that it wasn't what he wanted.
And I'm guessing we'll wind up in some crappy, lowest-level apartment I'll hate more than this place. We'll have neighbors above us and on each side of us and it'll be noisy, disgusting and utter hell. And probably cold as ****, too.
So, hey, we have that to look forward to.
Aw, I'm sorry to hear that; I'd been relieved to know you'd found a house you could all live in together and that you liked it - no Internet would suck, but a house without is better than nothing at all, eh? :s
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear people liked your TBBT fics - I haven't read them, mostly because I like stories with chapters at least 3000 words long, so I can justify having a meal or a snack while I read them - otherwise, I don't usually remember ... pathetic excuses, eh?
Let me know what happens - if things there suck badly enough, move here (or to where J&B live, so we can all visit more often) - but if you do get that house, also tell me, okay? I'm worried about you guys ...
It's not pathetic. Most, if not all of my chapters are less than 1,000 words long, though; and some of my stories only have six chapters. You'd have to read the whole book to make up for one chapter! ^^
DeleteI plan on being online every day until we have to pack up the computers, too. And with any luck, we'll have Internet at the new place as well. Of course one of us, or all of us, will keep you up-dated.
Of course I consider moving there! But Mom and Lorne need my financial help, and I theirs; and they don't want to move to such a cold place.
Wherever we do wind up, would you like pictures of the new place?
I hope you guys are that lucky... :D
ReplyDeleteAnd I'd love pictures, though someday I should see it in person, eh? :D A visit is long overdue :p
Well, it wouldn't be so bad to not have Internet. I could talk to you on the phone, and I think Mom and Lorne would still have Internet access on their phones, so they could talk to you on Face-book. And I could use a dictionary for research instead of the computer. There were ways to pass the time before the Internet came along.
DeleteYes, way overdue. ^^
Well, I know that, but I also hate talking on the phone - it's usually face-to-face or in writing, for me; maybe it'll be letters if not online :)
DeleteI forgot about letters! I've only received two that did not come from the bank. One from an aunt, one from a cousin. It would be nice to get into the habit of doing it old-school.
DeleteIt sure would! I just never know what to say in them ...
DeleteNeither do I, but thankfully we can think about it before sending it. And if possible, we can type it up and print it out. That doesn't require Internet, thankfully.
DeleteVery true . . . it wouldn't hurt me to write letters, or at least try; I can't guarantee I'll have anything to say that won't cure your insomnia, ha, I can be pretty boring, I think . . .
DeleteIt's better than talking on the phone, though; I always end up with huge silences that are really awkward . . . that even happened when I phoned my 'friends' when I was a little kid (like seven or eight years old) :p
It happened to me at that age, too. Still does. Even with the bank lady. Either we're both awk-ward, or she knows I am.
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