Thursday, August 15, 2013

I Feel Old...

Shrek Forever After (or as I like to call it, Shrek Goes Fourth) is TWO FRIGGIN YEARS OLD. Two years ago I was eighteen and now the movie is two years old! I don't watch it enough, considering its age. Hopefully the time passes just as fast for the sequel to Finding Nemo!
Time is such a funny thing. Memoirs Of A Geisha was made almost nine years ago; yet in every picture you can find of those actors and actresses, they don't look a day older.
Oh, and PS., I found that song I've been wanting to find since Shrek 4 was new. So congratulations to myself! I wrote my will, and I found my mystery music. My life is now complete. I feel so good! Metaphorically. I did it all in time, too, considering how unhealthy I really am. I had a heart attack-like event, which put me in the hospital. Sometimes it still hurts really bad. Apparently, two conditions I have had since a kid, are both deadly. How I'm still alive is beyond me. I also broke my toe.
But, as I was saying, time is a funny thing. I mean, here I am boasting about my progress, which is really held together by those special yet insignificant little things. And one day, I'll die, and it'll be like I was never here at all. I sure do wonder how, and when. And call me crazy, I want to die next so I don't need to live a single moment with the people who made my life so...Well, I flounder here. It's not perfect, but it's definitely not bad. I have a home and a big family, most of which is either weird or just unlikable. But I have one sister, two brothers, a sister-in-law, a stepsister, and a stepbrother; three parents; four grandparents, and a bevy of uncles and aunts and cousins and generations of people I never even got to meet! Here they are working their hands to the bone to give me a good life and I'm sitting at my computer, wasting it away and too scared of death to embrace life and change the person I hate being.
Sorry, family.
But smile. I won't be here one day. As much as it scares me, that's gotta make you feel good. And don't lie to me. I'd rather you just admit it.
Damn, I love this song! Can you believe this is one of my good days?

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