Saturday, June 26, 2021

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       I learned something. Every movie character I know, who has been injured in some way, always gets hurt on their right side. Nobu, from Memoirs Of A Geisha. The title character House, and also Wilson. Nemo, Gill and Dory from Finding Nemo. Carl, Ezekiel, Rosita and the governor from The Walking Dead.
      Small list, but a weird one.

Tuesday, June 22, 2021

Taboo

       I have got to tell you about this. Well, there is nobody here, but I'm going to come back to this blog one day for a laugh. I'm in a Walking Dead fan group on Facebook and one of the topics was, "Which character do you miss the most?" It had a picture of the characters eligible for the topic and among them was Glenn.
      I said Glenn and proceeded to list my favorite moment: When he kills the zombie with the chair he'd been tied to. Thought I did nothing wrong. But my comment was immediately deleted by an admin, because you can't say the word kill. It's a group for a show that's all about death and you can't say the word kill. How stupid is that? It's like looking through a telescope with your eyes shut!

Friday, June 4, 2021

What A Day

       This morning I was suckered into deep-cleaning my bedroom. I'd finally gotten to sleep, and I was having the coolest dream. Then there was a knock and I've been busting my ass ever since. God, my feet hurt. Anyway, I had put everything rattling around loose inside a laundry basket; but thinking things through isn't exactly one of my virtues. I forgot that the can of Lysol spray has a push button. All of a sudden, there's a mist; and I'm scrambling around trying to pick up this can slicker than snot, my arm is getting covered in cleaning solution, I've got papers in the basket, meanwhile I'm trying not to laugh and breathe it in.
      Then the rack in my closet broke, damn near making me piss myself, and my mother volunteered some storage. I go to hand her the hangers, and for some reason she ducks to grab them around the bottom, and hits me in a pretty unfavorable place. So long story short, it's been the most outrageous cleaning day I've ever had, and we're unfortunately not finished.
      But I am taking a break.

Sunday, May 23, 2021

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       I think I'm getting back into the groove here. At first using my new computer still felt like I was borrowing my brother's.
      Not a lot else has changed. I have fifteen pages, front and back, of handwritten book ideas that I've been maniacally writing down ever since my computer was declared up and running. And it starts out with more detail than I've ever written in my life!
      There was a rainbow here the other day, and my brother went out for a bike ride. He said he rode "into the rainbow" and described the colors as "brilliant." Sadly the closest I can relate is the scene in That '70s Show, where the dog gets high. At least, I think that's what I mean.
      I've also had amazing dreams that I've been dying to write down! Lately I've been dreaming a lot of flying over the town; whether it's a place I saw on Google, or in a movie, or if it's a game map; and there's usually a sunset. Once, I was actually a bat; and I could control what I did, and I hung upside-down on a ceiling and watched the sunset. It was so damn cool.
      Another dream was when I had to walk past where I used to live on a farm, to get to my house; which in my dream was kind of a combination between a farm and a trailer park. There were all these buildings and they all looked alike, and I was trying to find my house. So I knocked on the door, and this old man answered, and I told him it was the wrong address and kept going. Lucky for me, I saw my mother having a cigarette on our porch; I walked inside, and I knew I was home. I saw my relatives, our things. And then I turned around and walked out, and I just started biking around and around the property; and there were these cattails, waving in the wind. And it was so dark out. And then, of course, there was a bear...and I don't remember what happened after that.
      But this dream here is my favorite of the ones I've had since my computer died. I lived in an absolutely gorgeous....beach house mansion. And on the outside, it was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen. The water was the color of sapphires. And inside the house, there was all the ugly crap we own, placed in the ugliest spots; it really cramped the style of the home! But oh my God, that water. I haven't been anywhere that nice since I was four. Even then I couldn't enjoy it, because I was so little, and the rocks we had to walk on to get to the ocean were so big. And I hated having my hands held. Especially by my stepfather, who literally never....used soap. So that was my last vacation, and it sucked.
      I typically dream of spiders, death, wild animals, building collapses, and occasionally the royal family; with amazing detail. I dream about the royal family more often than I dream about flying, and I dream about flying more often than I dream about the ocean. In my last memorable dream, I hijacked a train car and started driving it around zombie-infested tracks, and my mother was just standing there, waiting to be eaten; and....I didn't let her in. And then Cuddy and Wilson strapped House to a table and walked away, and I've really just been dreaming about cats and spiders ever since. Also, I had a dream where Peggy Bundy hit her head really hard and became a total idiot, just in time for her appearance on a game show. She was licking a plate.
      My favorite dreams are definitely the ocean, a mansion, flying, the royal family....and there's one dream I don't think I've mentioned before. The short version, since I can't remember the long version, is that I went to college. Doesn't sound like much, but I'm a very lucid dreamer. I can see, hear, smell, and feel everything and yes, some-times I absolutely can control what happens.
      Ohhh, it feels so good to write everything down! Finally, I can throw away all those papers! I hate being a caveperson.

Saturday, May 22, 2021

Back Online

       My computer died last month. Believe it or not, it had melted inside! Evidence of a fire! Crazy. But I'm back, and not even my book characters were killed in the blaze. It feels so good to be back online and, you know, not dead.

Wednesday, April 21, 2021

I'm Scared

       When we were doing our taxes, I had to stand there like an idiot with the form and try to remember how I sign my name. And this morning, after dreaming about arguing with my stepfather, I could not for the life of me remember his. Or that I was hurting until I moved the wrong way. I know I'm forgetful, and realizing I'd forgotten surprised me.
      I haven't forgotten anything critical in a long time. Small stuff, mostly; where I put something, what day it is, the name of a celebrity. I forgot my own name in the first grade. I thought I was getting better, but I guess I'm not. I guess it'll just keep getting worse.

Friday, April 16, 2021

I Must Be Tired

       I'm running on about 20 minutes of sleep. Had to wake up almost as soon as I started dreaming to take care of my taxes, haven't slept since. So I was just trying to say, "When you were down for your nap, I had two sandwiches." And somehow it came out as, "When you were down for your sandwiches, I had two naps." And then I narrowly avoided saying that I was tonguing on my trip, so I think I'm about ready to crash.