Yesterday

      We still have snow. Must be a delayed reaction. It hasn't stopped me from going out. By myself. Near sunset. Yeah, I'm shocked too. I remember a time when I wouldn't go to the restaurants by myself if I had a ride and she was waiting outside the door. That wasn't that long ago. Since my family's health has been going downhill, I've had to do a lot of things that used to seem crazy. I'm so embarrassed that I was afraid. The snow plow drivers are not making good impressions of themselves. When the roads are clear they put down the shovel thing and scrape the road, and when there is snow they raise the shovel thing and don't get any of it.
      The walks in the snow can be exhilarating. The first time it was easier; there was no wind and I didn't have to wheel a full cart behind me. I hadn't had anything other than soup since around midnight and I hadn't slept at all, so when I got to the store I was a little weaker and more unsteady than usual. I didn't care for that.
      But the walk home was actually kind of fun. I got to wear my new toque, and I had to stop and get the snow out of the wheels. It actually made me feel old-fashioned. This time I actually got every-thing on the list, and a Monster Drink, too.
      And I've been writing books for, well, damn near two days straight. It paid off; even if they suck ass, I posted them online for the whole world to hate!
      You're welcome.

COLD!

      It finally snowed on February 3rd. It's not deep, but it's -20 and very, very windy. We actually have ice on the inside. So much for 'nice and toasty in the living room', which is where I was going to sleep. I guess it doesn't matter.
      Life is still hell, but now it's frosted. I was told earlier that each month my mother does not pay off her card, she owes that balance twice, and then three times, then four, then five! So in ten months we could be ten grand in the hole! He may have misspoke, but that really scared me. I've got this feeling that my brother and I will end up with her debt when she's gone.